Todd Boss’s debut poetry collection, Yellowrocket (W. W. Norton, 2008), is followed by Pitch (W. W. Norton) which debuted in February 2012. His poems have appeared in Poetry, The London Times, The New Yorker, on NPR, and in Best
American Poetry. He won the VQR Emily Clark Balch Prize in 2009. He lives in Saint Paul with his wife and children.
One Day Your Parents Confess
You Have a Twin
who was given up for adoption early on, when it was
clear they couldn’t manage him. It was, says your father,
the worst decision they’d ever made. (It’s you and your
parents at the kitchen table. Between you, the steam
from the teapot uncurls in a kind of breathing statuary.)
He was your inverse, your yin: When you went to sleep,
that’s when his terrorizing of everyone would begin.
He went from home to home to group home, and then
to prison, half mad, a drug-addled teen, with your name
tattooed over the veins in both forearms. “That’s when
we moved to Minnesota,” says your mother, but of course
he found you here, at the end of an abbreviated sentence,
and slit your throat while you slept. This was last year.
You’ve been dead ever since. We know this must be hard
for you to hear: but you don’t exist. You’re your own twin
brother’s obsession with you. (Can it be? Instinctively,
you reach to touch yourself about the shoulders, the neck,
but everything’s . . . identical.) It’s like a mad dream—
yes, the recurring one you’ve had since you were a child,
in which you go from door to door, trying to trade
your life for another’s, but nobody will trade, and you go
on and on, pounding, until, impossibly, you finally find
someone willing, and you wake. Your mother reaches
through the figure of steam to lift the teapot and pour
from out its only portal a little stream into her cup, her
husband’s cup, the cup in front of you. She sets the teapot
down, and now there are four apparitions dwindling there,
silken, gesturing. One of them says, We love you the same.
But you can hardly hear them as you push up your sleeves
—one at a time—and read, and reread, your name.
2013 New Ohio Review contest in Poetry and Fiction
From now until March 25th April 1st, we are accepting poetry and fiction submissions for our contest. Winners in each category will receive publication in the Fall 2013 issue of New Ohio Review and will receive $1500.